Me and My Fears

I am not comfortable in my own skin. I want to tell somebody about me and all the melodramas that play in my head but I can’t.

I want to be comfortable and be better off, but he tells me things that I cannot do, achievements that I cannot make and heights that I cannot attain .”What if it doesn’t work?” he scares possibilities out of me and has me focused on all the wrong questions. Once I stood up for me, I was out to prove him wrong but I still had my eyes on him because I couldn’t be alone without him. We were inseparable, he was my only friend or so I thought.

He is fear!

Remember the day I tried to be on my own, he let me but his gaze was fixed on me. I had tried really hard but I couldn’t survive on my own, I had lost the will, my dream, my vision, I was totally lost. There is no description of the mess I was. Sad and all by myself, Fear put it’s icy fingers around my wrist. It’s grip was too firm pulling me, and then I drowned.

I drowned in the new atmosphere that my fear, found me.

Depression.

Dawn came and the truth met with me : “For God has not given me the spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind. ”

For the first time ever, I looked him in the face and I took a step all on my own. I didn’t fall and he was right there watching. I saw courage walk in right behind fear and embraced me. I started with all of the limitations he set for me. I could do it! I can do it!! I got a sound mind!!!

I look in his face almost every time because he’s still here, but each time he says I can’t, I boldly take a step. This is my testimony, I am better and I am becoming a consequence.

My fear is afraid!

You Are Never Alone

Written By: Victoria